A couple weeks ago, my husband asked if I would speak during the message portion of a prayer and worship night. My initial reaction was a big loud “HECK NO!”, followed by a million excuses for why I’m the last person he should ask to speak.
I mean, c’mon, nobody wants to hear a story that doesn’t have a happy ending yet… That was the first lie.
Besides, God and I aren’t really that tight right now. Lie #2.
I can’t say anything meaningful while I’m still battling with my own doubt. Lie #3.
I don’t have any spiritual insight worth hearing. Lie #4.
I don’t want to burden others with my own suffering. Lie #5.
Need I continue? You get the picture.
My husband challenged me to pray about it, and as I sought for an answer, the Spirit lead me to 2 Timothy 3: 14-15
“But as for you, continue in what you have learned and have firmly believed, knowing from whom you learned it and how from childhood you have been acquainted with the sacred writings, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith in Christ Jesus.”
and then I turned back to 2 Timothy 2:13 and read outloud,
“If we are faithless, He remains faithful still.”
Even though I feel like my faith has been rocked, that I failed God as soon the road got tough, I KNOW IN WHOM I BELIEVE. My God has a relationship with me, and He has never once let me go.
And for that reason alone, I share with you now what I shared with them on that anointed Saturday night.
If you’ve got 30 minutes, sit down, grab your Bible and some coffee, and listen HERE.
While I do apologize for the blubbering and for the poor recording quality, I will not apologize for being REAL.
May God receive all the glory.